Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength. (Nehemiah 8:10, NIV)
This time last year, I was grieving the loss of my second angel baby. I used this scripture and many, many more to get me through that devastating time. I was determined not to give up in my grief, but to keep going because I knew it just had to get better. I knew that because I was dealt such a mighty blow, God was going to deal a mighty blow back at my problems. And boy did He! Within four months after this devastating time, I found out that I was pregnant again. This time, my baby had a heartbeat, and it was a strong one! I had been told a week prior to this that my husband and I wouldn’t be able to use my eggs to conceive and that a donor would be the best option although that route wouldn’t even be guaranteed. All the while, I was pregnant when I was receiving this information and we didn’t know it. Only God can do that!
If you have been following my blog from the beginning, you know that my husband and I had struggled for five years to conceive, and it just didn’t look good. (Side-note: I love using the word “had” as it refers to struggling to conceive. (:-) Writing about this journey has helped me over the last year, and I’m so happy to share with you that our baby boy will be born in two weeks!
Sometimes I think about what would have happened if we had given up during the dark times. What if we didn’t see beyond the road blocks? What if we hadn’t allowed God to carry us along that sandy beach leaving only his footprints? (See Footprints in the Sand poem) If we had given up, I know we surely wouldn’t be seeing the victory we are seeing now. If we had given up, our testimony would have been lost on the many people who have been blessed by our miracle.
I want to encourage you to understand that whatever you’re going through right now, it will get better. Please don’t give up in the tough times because better is on the way!
P.S. That is my little pea in the pod below. God is so faithful!